Every Which Way

I knew a one who’s every way
Was everyways indeed
She did not know which way to sway
And still does not conceive
That here we two are more akin
And aimlessness wanders
Out of the mind and then back in
“Which way?” “How?” it ponders.
Oh the how’s that my heart reaches
Is it reaching? I wonder…
Can your advice soften pits of peaches
Or [...]

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Heart Song

I’m sitting here writing a 15 page NIH-style mock grant and wondering when I’ll be myself again and I hear a couple who don’t know I’m here. They’re just being themselves: relaxed at the end of the day and at the same time giddy with each other. It’s 11pm and the lab is a ghost [...]

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Burn it all up

Sometimes the feeling overtakes the rhyme-scheme…right now I can’t really be composed or compose. This is killing me…I feel trapped by circumstance. Circumstance that I created and perpetuated. I didn’t know how not to dig myself into a ditch. I kept wanting to reach out–”I’m so close!” I didn’t know what was being felt or [...]

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Argument to Beethoven’s Fifth

I have come to understand the benefits of avoiding trivial or hurtful arguments altogether. But here we see that when arguments do happen, we’d best make them beautiful. There is so much love entailed in this–a seemingly destructive, but masterfully composed, nuanced, window into life.

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wordless

It’s 4 am and I am wordless
But I’ll try to write I don’t know why
My lonesome moments
Surrounded by friends
Or family
No use
The trickles of tears
My heart expands about to die
The sickest puppy in town
So what
Oh to be seen for what I strive
Rather than some
Motionless statue
Aging only to insult
Rather than ripening to maturity
What villain I am seen
Perhaps [...]

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Love of Perfumes: Part III of IV, You’ll See

Quite dizzy now and with my stupid smile
I saunter around the bottles a while
And settle on smelling, caref’ly, “you’ll see”
The one surely destined next for me.
And it took from me memory of smell
“Fie! What poison are you trying to sell?”
As if splashed in my eyes, body is numb
No one can hear me and my words [...]

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Buffy and The Spike

A forced poem…I really shouldn’t press “publish” right now, but I will. I don’t care, I don’t care.
I saw a sweet and dramatic picture
A beautiful huntress with sharpened stake
Like you, acted love’s scripture’s stricture
Pausing before vampire’s life you take
For me with my flaws I could not incline
But still, soft heart, you just couldn’t kill it
I [...]

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Love of Perfume: Part II of IV, Opium

When it is April and I am indoors
Meager feats rush the ground crossing the floors
Slow as I see something new down the hall
Coming close to find between rooms is a stall
Women-for-writing setup for a class
On a cloth they sell some wares as I pass
Here hairbands hewn from some African rock
Here, like me, antique key missing [...]

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Perils of Heartbreak: A Rant

Warning: While writing this and thinking through it was incredibly helpful for me, it probably won’t be for you. And it’s long. Ridiculously long. So unless you’ve got tons of time on your hands and you feel that you really need a crash course in self-assessment (my self-assessment)–better skip this one…
My mom cut out the [...]

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